Guess i'm back to blogging, after leaving my blog deserted for months :b contemplating whether to move to tumblr.. but i'm lazy so i guess i'll stick to here first! :) 

Just 2 weeks ago, we celebrated our 2nd month :D swimming & chilling @ his place + brunch @ P.S cafe = ♥♥♥ :) That pretty much sum up what we did during our 2nd month. Oh wait, he made me a card :3 Hehehe! Yupppp, just a card but it's my first gift from him, the most precious, everrrr :') And.. he's enlisting soon :( 7sep, but i pray hard that he'll pass his nafa so he can go in 2 months later so he can celebrate my birthday with me hehehehe :) 2nd, and counting because i believe there's more to come ♥

On a side note, school's gonna start in 2 weeks time. 2. Freaking. Weeks. Time fucking flies... Primary school, Secondary school, Polytechnic and now, University. Honestly, I am very very very scared. I really want to graduate with a second upper/first class honors, but is that even possible? Can i even cope? Sigh I don't know. I'm competing with all the possibly smart people from different schools.. How can I outsmart them? I'm not even smart to begin with :( Just yesterday, b's friend showed us his office @ MB Financial Centre. It's.... Fucking awesome. Though he's only working as a intern, he's earning fucking big bucks and I really mean, B.I.G. How on earth can i even get in there to work!? I have to study my ass off man. Sg's so competitive :( AHH whatevs. I should get over with university first before even talking about work. Maybe i won't even graduate, ok fuck i'm scaring myself T___T

I never thought it’d hurt so bad until Milo left us on 01 Feb 2011.

My eldest brother brought him back when I was in Primary 2/3. He was really cute and was as small as a tissue box. Over the years, he became more vicious and fierce; to strangers or to us. He just had to protect his belongings. It was so difficult for us to tame him, so we let him be. Not forgetting, hyperactive too. He was really healthy all along until last year, he was down with high fever and was very weak. I thought I was going to lose him but thank goodness, he made it.

At the start of this year, he then became weak. Then just a few days ago, he became weaker. He just lied down at a cozy corner of his cage; not wanting to move or rather did not have the strength to do so. No matter how much I called him, he didn’t response at all.. Then I told myself I will do my best to accompany him as much as I could because we all knew his days were numbered, he was already 12 years old and dog’s lifespan usually ends at that rage. I did, but I didn’t do enough. I could have done more..

2 days ago, my brother told my mum it was Milo’s 4^th day without any food and suggested that we put him up in the dog hotel in case he gets sicker and clinics won’t be available during CNY. On the day itself, I had no idea he was going to the clinic, so I didn’t spend much time with him and I regret it…  But it’s too late to say all that now. Just 2 hours after he was in, the vet gave my dad a call to tell him about how bad Milo’s condition was and suggested that we should go down to visit him. And there we went down, the vet told us that Milo was suffering for anemia and needed a blood transfusion; apart from that he was suffering from Kidney failure too so chances of him surviving after the blood transfusion will be little too. She suggested that we put him to sleep.

As much as we want him.. It was the best for him because he need not suffer anymore. Meanwhile, my brother and I patted him and he exerted his final strength to take a good look at all of us. The vet came, and she injected euthanasia into this leg… And there he fell asleep and was dead. Right in front of my eyes.  I will never ever forget that scene. It tore my heart apart. I kept crying, no words can express how much pain I was in. No matter how many times he bit me, and even though we didn’t spend much time together, I still love him dearly. He was not like any other dog. He’s Milo.

Till now, I still can’t accept that he’s gone. I miss his barking and Tommy misses Milo too. The BFFS... But Tommy’s all alone now. And whenever I recall the scene, my heart aches and I’ll start to cry. I really miss you, Milo.

Rest in Peace Milo, Jack Russell, 01 Feb 2011, 7.15pm. You will always live in our memories.  I hope you’re at a better place now. I love you.

Good morning ya'll. It's been quite awhile since i woke up this early, enjoying the morning breeze :> Uhm, actually i didn't sleep at all. Hahahaha imma superwoman la. I'm tired but my body's so fucking awake :<

Anyhows, i just celebrated my 19th bday last Sat with my poly clique + ex-wow(lol) clique. It wasn't a hoo-ha birthday, just a simple one & i'm contented. :) 19's no big deal anyway.. actually not, it's the last year i'm celebrating 1x birthdays. Hahaha! I'm gonna join the 2x gang soon, oh man.

And something tragic happened on my birthday... My uncle, my 2nd uncle passed away, on my birthday. This sucks. Thou i'm not close with him at all, i cried. I cried when we were burning our last incense papers to him, asking him to take care & all, sigh. I'm gonna pay my last respects to him later on before he's being cremated. It's gonna be such a heart wrenching moment for everyone who's thr later on. I'll miss you.

& i wanna eat pancakes! from mac. I had pancakes last saturday, but am still not satisfied. :( I think i should drive to Mac and dabao! Hehehe delivery suckz la. & I give up losing weight, there isn't any improvements despite doing shit tons of things bout it, fml badly. I'm fat. I shouldn't eat. Ok bb :( 

Finally an update, with pictures this time! Hehe. Like finalllllly.